Friday, April 30, 2010

i commit to...

delight myself in the LORD,
to commit my way to Him,
to trust in Him with all my heart,
to lean not on my own understanding,
and to acknowledge Him in my ways.

...and He will give me the desires of my heart,
and make my paths straight.

[psalm 37:4-5, proverbs 3:5-6]

Saturday, April 24, 2010

i just had a 7-hour conversation with someone.

wowzas, jesus you CRAZY. =.=

Friday, April 23, 2010

mmm.

to live as if i have nothing to lose.

...i have nothing, so what can i lose?

i don't have money.
i don't have status or fame.
i don't have future plans or ambitions.
i don't have a family of my own to take care of.
i don't have a place i call my home.






...i don't have food in my fridge.






WAKE UP.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

jesus is GENIUS :O

In the beginning times, God set aside Israel to be His people.

Israel rejected their God.

God responded;
through Israel's rejection of Him,
God brought salvation to the Gentiles.
God reconciled the world to Himself.

But God never forgot Israel;
through their jealousy of the Gentiles,
God brought salvation to Israel.
God reconciled His people back to Himself.

In the end, God saves both Jew and Gentile.
In the end, God reconciles both to Himself.

What a mastermind. :O

Oh, the depth of the riches of
the wisdom and knowledge of God!
How unsearchable his judgments,
and his paths beyond tracing out!
[Romans 11:33]
If I find in myself desires nothing in this world can satisfy,
I can only conclude that I was not made for here.

[Brooke Fraser - C.S. Lewis Song]

Monday, April 19, 2010

ever after.

Ever After - Gcap5
Verse 1:
Lord, this is my honest cry
I'm not satisfied, I'm so very dry
Will You ease this growing hunger of mine
For more of You, Lord, I'm empty inside

Pre-Chorus:
All I want
All I need is to feel You breathe

To hear Your voice
To hear You whisper over me
O, to think!

Chorus:
To be with You for the ever after
To be with You in every laughter
The song of angels resonate on high

To sing to You for all eternity
With all I am, the very best of me
A simple song echoes here tonight

Verse 2:
Lord, this is my deepest cry
To draw close to You, to be by Your side
Embrace me with Your strong arms, so tight
Show me it's You, Lord, not a trick of my mind

Bridge:
Draw me close
Close enough to hear you breathe
To sing this song to Your heartbeat
O, what a song I'll sing!

O, how I want for this to be!

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i feel like a mess and i don't even know why. jesus, please tell me cause it seems u know me better than i do myself.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

joanne, has it ever occurred to you that jesus speaks to you without words?

political science.
area studies.
history.
sociology.
language.
social welfare.
economics.
psychology.
mathematics.
physics.
biology.
chemistry.
etymology.
semantics.
theology.
business.
legal studies.
art.
music.
literature.


new additions to the list:
english.
philosophy.
the world is my playground.

?!???

paul was jewish, roman AND greek???

jewish - genealogy, knowledge/tradition of the law of moses, authority.
roman - open doors.
greek - philosophy, rhetoric, nuance, access to the world.

dang.

Monday, April 12, 2010

we have...

everything we need - time, money, energy - to do whatever Kingdom work God has set us out to do.

if we find ourselves constantly running out - of time, of money, of energy - chances are, we are taking on more than God has intended for us to do.

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness,
and all these things will be given to you as well.
[Matthew 6:33]

Sunday, April 11, 2010

i need to hear from YOU

You are all big and small, beautiful
And wonderful to trust in grace through faith
But I'm asking to taste

For dark is light to You
Depths are height to You
Far is near, but, Lord, I need to hear from You

..............Be near, O God
..............Be near, O God of us
..............Your nearness is to us our good

..............Be near, O God
..............Be near, O God of us
..............Your nearness is to us our good

Your fullness is mine, revelation divine
But, O, to taste, to know much more than a page
To feel Your embrace

For dark is light to You
Depths are height to You
Far is near, but Lord, I need to hear from You

..............Be near, O God
..............Be near, O God of us
..............Your nearness is to us our good

..............Be near, O God
..............Be near, O God of us
..............Your nearness is to us our good

[Be Near - Shane & Shane]

Thursday, April 8, 2010

can u...

please check up on me in a couple of days? i'm going to keep off chat for a while.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

i don't believe in democracy. i don't believe in capitalism either.

...they're both based on self-interest.

“The most effective and efficient way to maximize collective social welfare and the public interest is to allow individuals to act in their self-interest.” - Adam Smith, the father of the free market liberal school of economics.

i don't buy it. people have the ability and the tendency to seek their own self-interests...at the expense of the well-being of others. seeing the reality within this country (supposedly the most politically and democratically liberal of them all) and the impact that american policies and national interests have on the rest of the world, i can't proudly call myself an american.

i pledge allegiance to a country without borders, a country whose political economic system is neither democratic nor capitalist, a Kingdom which calls its subjects to live lives, not of self-interest, but of self-sacrifice:

Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.

Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus:


.......Who, being in very nature God,
..............did not consider equality with God
.....................something to be grasped,
.......but made himself nothing,
..............taking the very nature of a servant,
.....................being made in human likeness.
.......And being found in appearance as a man,
..............he humbled himself
.....................and became obedient to death -
............................even death on a cross!
.....................................................[Philippians 2:3-8]

O, that this humility has brought us restoration/shalom, that this humility has bequeathed to us peace with one another, that this humility has given us freedom and LIFE.

All the believers were one in heart and mind. No one claimed that any of his possessions was his own, but they shared everything they had. With great power the apostles continued to testify to the resurrection of the Lord Jesus, and much grace was upon them all. There were no needy persons among them. For from time to time those who owned lands or houses sold them, brought the money from the sales and put it at the apostles' feet, and it was distributed to anyone as he had need.
........................................................[Acts 4:31-35]

(this sounds a lot like communism/socialism, but even such regimes can't accomplish what this Kingdom can. the leaders of such governments also pursue self-interest, no matter how much they advocate that they do all things for the sake of their people. corruption and exploitation are no strangers to this system.)

this Kingdom-principle applies only to those who are Kingdom-people because only Kingdom-people are ruled by the King. the just King. the humble King. the Servant King. this Kingdom is not compatible with any other political economic system, precisely because it is not of this world.

so how is this relevant to the non-Kingdom world?
if only the people of God could completely devote and place ourselves under His rule (and be the People of God), we would be completely liberated from the slaveries of devastating poverty and lonely wealth. if only the world could see for themselves how the World was intended, created to be...

...to seek first His Kingdom,
...........a Kingdom that is not upside-down,.
...............................................................but rightside up.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

mmmmm...

"The first half of our lives is ruined by our parents and the second half by our children."

nah. :)

Thursday, April 1, 2010

jesus...

where do i fit in your plan?
where do i fit in your kingdom?
where do i fit in this world?

cause i gots NO IDEA. :p